Icarus

On days like this when I'm stuck lying in my bed;

Clinging on to what little my demons haven't fed;

Tears spilling from the holes they bore in my heart;

Just trying to figure why they keep pulling me apart;

Expectations towering over me pointing out my faults;

I tried to hide but I'm not safe even in my locked vaults;

You tell me what to be and then I tell myself it's not enough;

I expect perfection but end up crying when it's too tough;

I hold myself to even higher standards then I was taught;

You pointed to the highest mountain but still a higher one I sought;

All I wanted to do was be able to impress you;

But you never even noticed no matter how high I flew;

So just like Icarus I flew up too high;

To show you I was worthy I was willing to die;

I put my life on the line and in the end got burned;

Because I never got your approval that I yearned;

So are you finally happy with me now;

Did I finally measure up somehow;

Or do I still not deserve a single thing;

All because of my little burned wing;

I just wanted you to see my worth;

That I have a reason to be on this earth;

I only wanted you to be proud of me too;

Like I see all the other parents do;

But as I lay crumbled on the ground;

I see the truth I wish I hadn't found;

Like Icarus I should've kept my place;

Leaving perfection for others to chase;

Because in the end no matter how hard I tried;

You would have never given me your pride